by Andrew Payton
after a photograph from the invasion
I am not the man dead in the street.
The daughter is not my daughter.
Every day I wake, eat an egg, some fruit.
I pour last week’s yogurt into the milk.
Who am I to want? Every time
I shape the question the ends fail
to connect. What I mean is: crack a word’s
shell to find in the yolk another word.
I exist because oil scalds my face,
under my clothes, under my skin,
under the ape of me and somewhere
in this chaos of protein exchange.
So I put on the leash and the dog pulls
to the top of yesterday’s hill.
I open the screen to yesterday’s emails
and I eat an egg, fruit, yogurt.
I sit on the couch and think nothing
and the dog licks my hand. No,
I think about the man and god
licks my hand. I think nothing
and the dog licks yolk from my chin.
Today I will eat an egg, some fruit.
So what if I have nothing to say?
The moon is a ball of borrowed light.

Andrew Payton is a writer, teacher, learning designer, and climate advocate living in Harrisonburg, Virginia with his partner and children. His work is featured in New Ohio Review, Nimrod, Poet Lore, Alaska Quarterly Review, and elsewhere, and won the 2024 Laux/Millar Poetry Prize from Raleigh Review.